Broken but hopeful.
This is how Saab Magalona described her mood in a blog published today, after revealing that she lost her baby girl early last month.
Her daughter’s twin brother is still fighting for his life at the hospital.
“I’ve stayed silent because I think I’ve been in denial. I thought keeping it to ourselves would make this whole thing unreal,” she wrote, adding that last month, she was in and out of the ICU “and I almost didn’t make it.”
“On February 8, we lost our baby girl. Our baby boy is still in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit,” she said.
The positive news is that her son has already undergone surgery and his condition is improving.
Magalona did not reveal the illness of her newborn twins.
“So many things happened in the last month. There are so many people we could blame and be angry with, but each time we hold our boy, we think otherwise. He’s been fighting to be part of this world and it’s our responsibility to make it one that is forgiving — one that tries to see the best in other people,” she said.
“We are taking it one day at a time, focusing on all the good things we are blessed with. I am still alive, I have a strong and loving husband, and God has shown us so many miracles through our little boy,” she said.
“Publishing this means that this whole thing is real but I can’t keep her a secret for much longer. I need to honor her. She was such a beautiful girl and we believe she gave her life for me and her twin brother.”
Magalona said she was thankful for the hospital staff and others who have helped her get through the tough ordeal of losing a child.
“This whole time, we’ve been nervous about bringing children into this scary world and in an instant, our world was turned upside down. Despite this tragedy, we have encountered so many heroes and kind people,” she said.
“If you look hard enough, this doesn’t have to be such a scary world after all. I know we’ll make it through.”
Magalona’s father is late Filipino rapper Francis Magalona.
